Emmy's First Day of School

Dear Emmy,
I cannot believe that today is your very first day of school.  When you were born almost four years ago, this day seemed so far into the future, I could barely comprehend it.  But here we are.  This morning I will dress you in your first day clothes, take about a million pictures, walk you into your classroom, give you one last hug and kiss, and hold back a million tears as I walk out the door, leaving you alone.

I'm scared, I'll be honest.  Every single day for the past almost four years you have been with me.  Only select few family and friends have ever been allowed to watch you.  You are my baby, the girl who made me a momma.  I'm scared about having to entrust strangers with your care, especially with your severe peanut allergy.  But we've done a lot of research on schools, and I know this is a safe, loving place that will take good care of you.

I will miss you though sweet girl.  I'm not used to be away from you so much every day.  I'm not used to you doing things without me.  I'm sad to think that there will be so many fun things you'll get to do that I won't be there for.

But I know it's time.  You weren't born to be my baby forever.  As your mother, I'm supposed to help you grow, and guide you in the right path, so that you may one day go off on your own, making your own decisions.  And that first step starts with preschool.

I know you will have an amazing time.  You are so excited and so ready for school.  You are just itching to learn and make new friends.  You need more stimulation than just sitting around at home with me and Charlie.  You're going to love it.

I hope that your teacher and other students see the spark in your eye, your beautiful spirit, and your kind soul.  I hope they find as much joy in your songs and stories as we do.  I hope they respect your love of horses.  I hope they love you, not quite as much as us, but as much as they can in their own way.

I hope you have an amazing time.  I hope you are obedient and listen to the teacher.  I hope you are kind to the other kids and treat them with respect.  I hope you learn a TON and this year sets you up for a lifetime of love of knowledge and learning.

I love you so much baby girl.  I hope you have a fabulous first day!!